Notes while Grieving | Shaun McNicholas

Tribulations cannot cease until God either sees us remade or sees that our remaking is now hopeless. Be sure that the ins and outs of your individuality are no mystery to Him; and one day they will no longer be a mystery to you. C.S. Lewis "The Problem of Pain"

Pain and heartache makes the good times so much sweeter. Suffering makes us appreciate the times of peace and prosperity. The day after I fully recover from having the flu I often think to myself that I can’t remember another time when I felt more alive or more full of energy, things taste better, smell better and taking a deep breath feels so good. So in the light of my present sufferings "Life is truly beautiful."

Never have I felt such sorrow, such pain, it seems a well without a basin, a bottomless pit. I love deeply and in so doing I hurt, others love me and so I inflict unending pain in my humanity, because of my humanity; and yet I cannot with all my striving cease to be human no matter the desire until God sees fit to transform me. In light of it all my tears are a celebration of a joy and happiness I no longer posses